When ever you get a moment to yourself do you get really excited about the possibilities of things you can do, just for you, and then when it comes to actually doing it you talk yourself out of it and end up bumming around the house and sit your ass down on the couch and just watch a movie?
Well if you don’t I do, especially in the 2WW when my mind is trying to distract itself from the obvious. I was doing really well actually, I am 4DPO today and it wasn’t until I realised my house is empty, I have the weekend to myself, it seems so quiet, I sit here writing this blog hearing nothing other than the sound of cars driving by and the tapping of my keyboard. But with all this quietness, I can’t seem to turn down the dial of my thought process. If you could only hear the thousands of thoughts and ideas that run through my mind on a second by second basis, honestly it’s exhausting.
I can go from dreaming about being a mum, wanting to start my own business but not sure doing what, to thinking about what to have for tea, or feeling guilty that there is a load of washing ready to be done but I just can’t be bothered doing it but I really should, then onto wanting to do something fun and creative today but then before I can even decide on one thing my mind races to another. After that i think, well I probably should go catch up with a girlfriend but then realise I am just not in the mood to be around babies today so will just have to give that one a miss. My thoughts are then so overwhelmed I somehow decide not to do any of those things and just chill out, and then that’s how I find myself back on the couch. A serious case of indecisiveness, wanting to escape reality but not sure how and trying to distract my thoughts from this horrid process being the 2WW.
In amongst all of those somewhat fluttery thoughts I actually do have a few good ideas that I could take action on that would genuinely help me. The first is I found out last week in my first reflexology appointment that our local women’s health clinic run a Pilates class, perfect! So there is my new Tuesday night hobby / timeout… So what else?
I’m an extremely creative person and love to do arts and crafts, the problem is I get so distracted that I jump from one project to another so quickly I never quite master any one thing. It would be good to actually perfect something and know I can do it well. I recently started candle making, perhaps I should get out my gear later today and give that a crack… It will help me through a bit of today’s boredom I’m sure.
I have a question for all you lovelies out there, what do you do for yourself to help you through the 2WW? And how do you cope when all of your friends tend to have babies and you really don’t want to be around all this at the moment so you have to occupy your own time? Look forward to hearing from you 🙂